Memories

My time at Starhub feels like a dejavu to me, like when i was in primary school. It is like a cycle, i hope what follows is as exciting as my secondary school days. And i hope i can know another "Jem".

Peaceful day

I forgo my pride this once but i will treasure myself more. Someone once told me that it is important to preserve your pride and not always give in. I thought, why not take a step back and the world is a better place. Now i concede, cause by doing so you are just running away from the problem and not solving it. It will come back to haunt you.

Got a good tan today, no hot babes but a lot of small kids to create some chaos out of my otherwise peaceful day LOL. Swam for an hour before heading to SIM for my uni application. Then to Tiong Bahru for Source Code=)) It's a movie i have been tracking since last year when i saw it on IMDB. Good movie, kinda touching towards the end but i can never understand how the guy fell in love with the girl in a few 8mins. First time watching a movie by myself, LOL i recall telling Shi Min i will never watch a movie alone, never say never! Oh and when the girl selling tickets heard me buying a ticket she was like, "1 ticket?" I bet she was thinking, "how can a cute guy like him be watching movie alone? I wish i could watch with him!!!" Anyway something funny happened at the NTUC while i was waiting for the show to start. Still coughing, i went to get some lozenges and was browsing through the shelves when i heard a loud "Zhao"! My instinct was, "what the hell, even at this place there is someone who knows me?!" My shock was met by a couple of girls who was actually making their way out-.- I thought i how famous sia.

Peaceful day, wanted to visit my grandparents but was a little late after the movie. Next week perhaps, i'm missing everyone a little. Oh by the way, Jem, happy meeting Say Hwee!!! I don't know if you are too busy to skype but it is okay, i'm not really in the mood to skype now if you know what i mean. Can always drop me an email or msn me=)

P.S.: If you have just less than a minute to live, what would you do?

Song of your heart

I need to recount my "adventure" on 21/04/2011. Absolutely the most unlucky day of my life this year. Woke up by the stinging sound of my ringtone instead of my alarm & i knew i was recalled. Then, nik decides to be nice & not ask me cover him not knowing i already left house without my cousins' presents & stuff for rest of the day. Anyway, thanks to him hanging in there. Went Bedok for breakfast & swim but so coincidentally, the pool wasn't open till evening time!!! So i decided to go Tampines to swim and lucky me forgot my goggles. Rush back home to get presents & meet my cousin, Wan Yin, to pass her presents for her & Wan Xuan. Had a decent lunch at Holland V, my first time trying Mexican food. Portion and flavor much to my liking. Okay maybe the only good thing about that day was the food. Updated Wan Yin about my life and also learn about her interesting pilot-boyfriend. What a dream, to be a pilot. Next, went to meet SK at NUS where i alighted at the wrong stop only to walk up a slope. I know i fit la, but the day just seems to get shittier. Follow SK home and htht along the way, been long since we hang out especially with Fat-Soh slumbering into some kinda depression. Me becoming a slave for money/Starhub, SK & Mao managing their studies and relationships, our gang haven't been meeting for El Clasicos and late night matches. Emo. Carrying on, we went to Tampines SAFRA to play pool but so many people we thought no hope when the uncle asked us to write our name to book after like 15-20min. Had he asked us earlier we would be playing but also our fault not to asked. Walked around the whole SAFRA also cannot find any ATMs, WTH??? Luckily, saw this girl with a not-bad back view, *Beethoven* but she never turned around. Apparently she just finished a game of squash, i think sporty girls exude great charisma. Woosh! Anyway, we went back to see the queue and indeed we were next but it's gonna take at least another hour cause all the tables were full and the next group to leave were the ones before us. Demoralized to the max, we walked to Tampines Interchange and chilled at Starbucks. Left @ 1030pm to take bus only to miss my bus, waited like quite long so i decided to cab. The moment i cross the road to flag cab, all the cabs in the world disappear; my bus came. Apparently i wasn't unlucky enough, people started to hijack cabs in front of me till the point i gave up on cab. My bus finally came, that was 1115pm!!! Luckily SK waited with me along the way and consoled me. Thanks SK, for making the wasted trip with me=p Ran home even though i was in my Fred Perry shoes(sorry Michelle=p) Cab down to ECP Cage for some midnight futsal. This is the highlight of my suayness man. My $125++ predator pulse splits into 2 at the arch of my foot as i ran. Unknowingly my stuts were all broken! Then Soon Tat returned me my other pair of boots and same thing, it broke after a few runs. This Tiempo accompanied me since secondary school and although it is cheaper, i prefer it to the predator. Just like that, 200++ flew away, heartaches... Okay that sums up my ultimate unlucky day, but luckily there was a message to cheer me up that night=D

Feeling nostalgic, started listening to the 90s. Started with this song from bsb, Shape of My Heart, like the chorus. Then, N Sync, my favorite band! Share a trivial - N Sync was formed by the last letter of the first name of the members. Cool eh? This I Promise You has got to be my favorite song, remember that Jem! LOL

Anyway was sms-ing HPY when i realized, i have no female friends with those sizzling hot looks or figures. No offence but really, i think about it and, yea i continue thinking. Pretty friends a lot, my "mother" Janet is a beauty. Monday, saw her in manager room and she gave me her brightest smile man, honestly i got "dian" by her! 31 still pretty as ever, if only she doesn't slouch. Been long since she last smiled like that, hope the new staffs don't give anymore problem, Sandra don't throw more spanner and she lives happily ever after with Jeff. Thought Monday was a good day cause not much crowd, was back to Standing counter with Ronn & Fang Ying. I can only say i was disappointed, was i too slack yet expecting too much?


Just saw a post regarding a lonely baleen whale singing at a frequency higher than what it's specie can hear, thus, it has no family, friends, lover, gang or group. The poor whale has been tracked since 1992 and till now it is still alone. If any human under the same predicament, he/she probably died of depression in 1993. Read a blog that says animals in the wild do not suffer depression like humans. They don't turn suicidal cause they don't have friends and stuff. That whale must be damn optimistic or lucky, wish that it will finally find a friend. Loneliness is my most dreaded foe.

Just had a HTHT with Pei Yu at kopitiam, miss this kinda spontaneous late night meet ups that i thought was only possible in Bedok. Chat about the usual stuff and 1 thing she said struck me hard, that shall be my P.S. note for this post. I HATE SMS, WHOEVER INVENTED IT, I'M NOT GONNA THANK YOU. Random.

P.S.: 我们要更爱自己(我们要懂得自爱)

Emo

Went for dinner with my uncle-cum-godfather, cousin & grandma and my family. Didn't go to the Nakhon Kitchen as intended but to a Hong Street Zichar Restaurant at Eastwood Road. In the land of my hometown, everything is nice=)) As we were eating, i realized i'm truly my father's son. As in, cause i don't like to kiap food for people-think it is too formal & fake-and there my father was kiap-ing food for the entire table while i was chanting in my heart "don't kiap for me"! Don't know telepathy or what, he finally turned to me and said with the damn cool voice, "eh boy, 你自己拿hor?" For a moment, he was like the Bruce Willis of "Die Hard 4" and Liam Neeson of "Taken", i look at him with admiration. My dad and i really think alike man, like father like son. No wonder i so handsome!!!


I was watching 一代女王 and they were talking about joining this positive 无可救药积极正面思考团 cult. Talking about how those people with suicidal thoughts or depression became positive about life. Something they said struck me strongly-a pair of good friends lost their friendship cause of jealousy. Makes me think of a lot of people like Ming Wei, Jem and even Eloise. Ming Wei, was like my identical twin, likes soccer, joined NCC & council, study same subjects, joined Furnix blah blah blah. I got to admit i was jealous of him cause i was living in his shadow. Oh well, glad it's over. As for Jem, i'm just glad we are still friends=)) Till the day that i can entrust my faith in someone, maybe i'm not ready to enter a relationship.


Browsing through facebook, don't know how just wander to Michelle's page. Photos of her classmates reminded me of the times she shared with me about them. Really missed the days when i could readily ask her out for a game of pool or just to go to ECP and stroll. Still keeping the tissue she folded for me although that $2 heart was lost in a cab when i went bugis 3 years back. Then again, seeing how happy she is now & how much she has changed, smile & move on=D Moving on by Toya is a song that really helped me, still remembered i first heard it in NYDC with Soh, SK & Mao cause of Mao's imba voucher.


Tomorrow is gonna be a super shag day and i'm still not sleeping. Got to hit the bed soon. Good night everybody, oh ya, to those who are reading this, YOU DON'T HAVE TO PUBLICIZE MY BLOG!*you know who you are*


P.S.: If my life were a song, what song would it be.


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Employee's benefit

Just received the employee's benefit letter from BGC. It informed me of what Medical Leave & Annual Leave i'm entitled to after THREE MONTHS and when did i receive it? Exactly 51 weeks after i joined, that's 1 week short of being a year! Only takeaway from the letter? The orchid stamp that i cut out from the letter cover -_-


P.S.: 随遇而安