Letter

Today, i was awaken by my mum. As reluctant as i was, little did i know that was a blessing in disguise. We went to the void deck then somehow she just feels like opening the letterbox, her habit. TADA~ surprise surprise, i had a mail!!! Looking at the familiar handwriting of my own address & that taiwanese stamp, i turned behind to see the name at the bottom right corner - Jemima Yeo=) That's why i always ask myself, did we come into the world to make decisions? Or are all these decisions being made by the god upstairs and we are here to understand why these decisions are made? When i die, i will probably ask the god but i still believe that we have the power to make decisions. Never leave it to fate & surrender to what you feel/see.


Back to the letter, ugly handwriting, nothing fanciful, sweet to the heart. It served the function the writer intended - a smile from the moment i started reading=) First time receiving a letter from friend abroad. The occasional cancellations & mistakes make it so informal & real. I shall not reveal any details here, so Jem Yeo, wait for my reply k?


Recently hooked to this Ne Yo song, One In A Million. Don't really like the lyrics cause there are some strong words but the music is good. There is also another song that i pretty quite like too, 偏爱, OST of 仙剑奇侠传3. Just sharing the good songs around=)


Heh heh went for a jog & i bet 2 person will be feeling damn sian. 1 is Fatsoh, the other is Jem. You 2 better start exercising before ya return to the elephant family i tell ya. Especially You Jem, i know you are reading this and drinking bubble tea & eating fried chicken chop!!! If i don't recognize you when i visit, don't blame me for ignoring you!!! Okay i feel happy la, finally back to running again. Need to maintain my shape man, haven't been eating well so not out of shape but just wanna tone up. I know it's a little crazy but i'm thinking of waking up at 7am to jog before going work everyday. This will require some discipline but i shall try it out! Time to get some rest for work. Nitez.


P.S.: Would you do everything to ensure no regrets? Or would you not do anything that may cause you to regret?

WOOHOO

Today, i slept for more than 12 hours! Unhealthy but it is damn shiok, super alert like i'm on red bull man. Woke up @ noon, pee-ed, lie on my parents bed face down, concussed. Nothing much happened, no recall. I like this kinda slow pace lifestyle man, hopefully i get to retire & migrate to Italy in the future. Got a haircut @ okinawa, not bad quite short=) 2nd pleasing haircut from them. They seem to understand the hairstyle i wanna get.

Feeling damn unfit recently, gotta start running & keep fit. Forgot when was the last time i did push ups man, maybe during CNY haha LOL=p muscles all shrinking, no wonder i'm losing weight. No training buddy anymore, unlike when i was in Bedok, could easily get Kiat & Soh out to run or swim. Freaking Seng Kang, make my life so difficult. In need of some endorphins to perk myself up.

Random thoughts... We come into the world to make decisions? Or is it all pre-destined & we only come to know why we made them?

P.S.: Things will never be the same again

Valentine's Day

Today, I am overwhelmed by emotions. Valentine's day is finally here, have been so looking forward to it!!! So many uncertainties & hiccups just before it that i almost thought it was gonna be another lonely day @ home. Luckily, 老天爷 decides to help me & WOO, happy only! Honestly, i have always been late when going out so this time i actually arrived 15 mins before time, you should really be honored man. Movie was not bad, kinda gore but other than that i like the story line, just wasn't sure this is the kinda movie to watch with you=p Best part of the day was at Canele, where you talked like your floodgate was opened! Listening to people's stories was always enjoyable, especially more so for you. Thanks to the STUPID 刘谦 magic show where he performed with the macarons, i decided to give it a try instead of the famous chocolate there. Totally regret, now i need to borrow the book from FMIL=p This was a pleasant day out from work, only down side - we didn't take any photos=(( no worries, 来日方长, i'm sure we'll get to take many many photos again.


After that went to meet Jem & give her the presents. You will be leaving for Taiwan in a few hours, have fun!!! Have a decent chat though not for long. We must definitely catch up more now that we are so far away le. Please keep what we said a secret, don't tell Siyao esp, if not i'm sure gonna get it from him. Hope you like the box*winks*


Finale, chalet @ aloha loyang. Didn't really wanna gamble cause didn't bring much money & the main reason i went was cause HPY was there and i thought we could have a good htht. Ended up gambling away & i was really too shag to have any meaningful chats. Hope you don't mind HPY, i really cannot cannot tahan.


Next day, off to work with < 2hrs of sleep. That's where all the shit kicks in. Something very very bad happened. I hate it cause everyone will be helping except me. It's not that i don't want to help but i know my appearance will only make things worse. I haven't felt so much fury in a long time & all my ~!@#$ vocab almost became an essay. God damn lucky i wasn't at info today, if not that bitch will shit in her pants & wish that she had never trifled with the wrong person. Fcuk to you! Already lack of sleep, this had to happen & MAKE my day!!! Thank god lunch was okay & i hope the $2 is as perfect... Thanks to my standing brudders for letting me sleep behind for like 30mins or so. Always loved standing, although Tar Hau can be an ass but he is a nice guy. Hong Han is just a small brat out to have fun, but he is good-natured, not some stupid gangster. Kimyunzhong is blur & serious but she shows her efficiency during closing. Of course there is Nikolas who seems the most independent of them all. Pardon me for being so fierce to you all but i have higher expectations.


End of the day, i really wanted to go home rest but shitly had to help info pump queue. Just when everything was about done, i had to return the Iphones to TCI. WTF?! Can't you even send 5 sets??? Unfortunately, there has to be an error in the keying of the non-epos due to the COMPLETE ILLEGIBLE handwriting of Nikka. Raj had to key the reversal of the set wrong AGAIN to make me wait even longer. FML. So i had to go home alone, 1 hour after the original time i had intended to go. Shag like dog i tell you. I only came online to blog cause i had freaking lotsa feelings suppressed in me & i really have to express how i feel before i forget. Getting tired, gonna concussed. Nitez.


P.S.: It is not about whether you should go into a relationship but whether the person is the right one for you

11.02.2011

Today, is a very beautiful day. 11022011. What a nice date. Perfect day without disputes, job well done 11+ reach home lo. Good day actually started the day before. Woke up to a sunny day, so i went swimming to show off my wonderful body! To my surprise there were a couple of bikini babes suntanning but i was there for serious swimming. Then, a few tikopehs in their 50s & 60s came to squeeze in my lane to nourish their eyes. Freaking dam obvious la, suddenly so many people squeeze in 2 lanes. Go home watch their stupid porn la, come disturb those people who really wanna swim. There is also this 2 funny girls, 1 in a very weird swimming costume, don't know how to describe. As if the pool is theirs, no licence please don't swim like your grandpa's swimming pool. Anyway shiok shiok swam for 45min then suntan for 30min, definitely got tanned but the tan line not obvious to others=p


After that went to visit my FPIL, as if anyone can decipher that LOL. What a nice feeling to be back to your old place... One of these days i'm definitely moving back to Bedok. So paiseh to be sleeping away even though my MIL has been staring at me for god-know-how-long??? Anyway she is super comical la, very funny lor. Really a young mummy with a young voice & young heart also LOL. Dinner was super full cause the other 3 like on diet so i just stuff myself full. I felt unproductive though, not really getting much going for our trip except for the booking of the tickets. Well at least something is done. Pleasant night with the surprise of how down one can be. Ever gotten blackjack but the banker kept changing cards?! Well, someone did LOL. Long bus ride back home but at least not without YOUR companionship=)


Alex: thanks man, can i "like" my own post LOL
Jem: so u think u can come back to SG w/o any suffering???


P.S.: Sorry That I Loved You

Optimistic

Self pity is no pity. No point being hanging ya head low waiting for people to ask you, "how are you" when obviously you are god damned pissed with the world & slightly jealous that all those smiley faces are leading a better life than you. Honestly, other than "are you alright", i do not know how to start a conversation with someone depressed even though it's a rhetorical question. Comforting/consoling someone is so tedious because you have to be tactful with words and think of a solution for someone who isn't in a clear state of mind to sort things out. That's why friends, please don't be emo cause i get frustrated at people giving up on themselves & despite me encouraging them, there is no effort to improve.

If you are feeling doubtful about your friends, your work & yourself, SMILE! Bring out that confidence in you & everyday will be a better day when you flash that smile. Yes, YOU that's right! Cheer up, always look on the bright side of life.

P.S.: In knitting, there is a right & wrong side. Right side being the beautiful pattern you see while wrong side being the ugly picture of the yarn criss-crossing. Both are part of the same product but it is from which side you view that determines whether it is beautiful or ugly. This applies for everything you do, it is your point of view that determines whether it is joy or agony

大年初一

Today, i am at my cousin's house blogging. A bit anti-social but i really need to take this chance to recap my CNY if not i won't be able to when work resumes. I must say, i am very proud to say that i 守夜 till 630am on 除夕! Hope my parents will be 长命百岁& enjoy life=))

On the big day, i went to maternal grand aunt place with grand aunt all alone, not even a maid around to take care of her. Always felt sad for her since grand uncle passed away when i was J2, she was never the same. Still happy-go-lucky in front of us, but you could see tears well up in her eyes as well. I knew that grandma hasn't been visiting the place since grand uncle left and suddenly i was thinking, what is it like to lose a sibling to death. Never had a sibling, never will know. I really really really long to have a sibling, preferably a younger sister for me to take care of. Oh well, that can only be a regret now. Anyway, grand aunt was telling us how her son & daughter-in-law believed the maid instead of her when she was taking care of their 3 babies. It is so freaking sad that your child who you raised for more than 3 decades rather believe an outsider, thinking you may be "eccentric" or senile??? No matter what, i hope i will never end up like 1 of those unfilial son. Grand aunt, i hope you will stay cheerful & happy and don't think too much.

My exploitation to the north continues as we went to my paternal family in Marsiling. What a surprise in place, a $600++ buffet with the fried rice already turned sour. Ended up each family had to fork out $90 for that thing that i didn't eat. My mum KEEPS complaining about how the indian/malay delivery guy heats up the food, which was prepared the day before since most chefs wouldn't work on CNY, before making the delivery. Noticed i said KEEPS cause she is still going on about it, even till now!!! Well, i never liked going to my paternal family much but still i was disappointed not to see my godfather-cum-uncle. He dotes on me even though i probably see him less than 5 times a year!!! Always giving me ang bao money on my birthday, New Year & Chinese New Year. It's not the amount that he gives but the fact that he can remember my birthday that matters!!! I must start doing my thanks-giving.

Then went to maternal grandma place where i feel truly at home. Ate a few satays & played Rummikub before i rushed back home to welcome my friends. So guilty i had them waiting at my house void deck=p Anyway, SUPER DUPER WHOOPER happy to see the 2 girls!!!!!!!!!!! 1 is my HPY, the other is my Cherry! Also quite happy to see Kwang la, but obviously not as happy as seeing the 2 cute girls=)) Played mahjong & blackjack and was pretty paiseh that i won a lot. Highlight was that we witnessed 2 BLACKJACK as in ace & jack of spade in an hour, something i have never seen before. 21 times o.o Coincidentally it is the two 21yo who got that! Felt bad that they had to cab home, if only i have a car. Oh well, get to see them tomorrow soon! Pretty tiring to type such a long post, shall 在此罢笔.

P.S.: The closer we are, the more painful it gets when we part

Happiness

Today marks the end of the journey at Starhub for my buddy, Esther. From the day she joined Starhub, she has always been that cool cool back-end sister who is damn efficient with her work. Honestly, i admire my buddy. She is the type who doesn't enjoy too much attention but when you think back, "eh, she has been there for a lot of our gatherings & stuff..." True-blue back-end angel*respect* Had a great breakfast with buddy, FL & Kwang. Simple but sumptuous meal, it's the company that matters.


After work, went over to grandma house for reunion dinner. Been so long since i return there. Though the old house is gone now, memories of my childhood still gushes into my mind. I still remember exchanging uniform with my cousin in kinder garden. Nothing wrong? Problem was my cousin was a girl. Funny things that i use to do. Once i watched too WWF & i tried to imitate a typical Jeff Hardy dive from the study table. Lucky i landed on my elbow & just had to let the sinseh klack klack my arm. Memories.


Jem will be leaving for taiwan in a couple of weeks. Please let this be a good experience for her to see the world & better prepare her for her future. Hopefully she won't be lured to all those good food there & lost control. Jem, i know you will be reading this!!! IF YOU DARE MAKE ME NOT RECOGNIZE YOU, GET READY WHEN YOU COME BACK...... To Say Hwee, please keep a good eye on her when you visit her. Any anomaly please tell me, i will bring some weights to taiwan for her. To fatsoh, mao & sk, shall we plan for a little trip to genting or kinabalu???


Finally registered for 2XU race, the race pack seems imba. At least better than Stand Chart i think. It's already February and i still have yet to train for Sundown LOL. Time to die a 2nd time. Doesn't seem to have the time for everyone, to keep fit, to relax myself & to earn more money. At this rate how can i ever find a girlfriend huh? Janet, Vicki whole day trying to matchmake people-.- Relationship thingy can't be rushed man but when the right one comes i will grab the opportunity, i think.


Last but not least, to my ever-present HPY. You know how grateful i am & i don't have to repeat myself. Here's what i need to tell you, for your own good, you must be more confident. Sometimes being a bit narcissistic like me is good, at least it keeps you going! Remember, try to convince people, if not then you confuse them, really cannot, just con them! When there is something you want to do, don't think too much & harp on it. Otherwise, you will grow hesitant & lose all your confidence. A confident woman is the most charming woman, that's why Janet is so hot!!! Although it will be better if she doesn't hunchback. So lift your head high when you walk, the wind will style your $270 helmet for you=)


P.S.: May all the ANG BAOs in the world unite...to my house!!!