Time will tell

Now that you're gone, i'm holding on. Cause in my heart you still live on. Still worried if you are emo. No worries(consoling myself), soon you will have a whole lot of new friends and move on with your life. Your smile brightens my day, without me knowing that it actually brings you so much pain. Time will tell if this is the right choice, though i rather we......still be friends.


P.S.: Don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened

- Dr Seuss

Friends

Had a little talk with Michelle about "friends". Really help me to decide what i should do. Just because A is a friend of both B & C doesn't mean B & C can be friends. By right, i should be happy since my problem has been solved but there is still a tinge of sadness hidden in me. Of course, i don't want to lose a friend, but if being friends is so painful, i rather we forget about each other. I know i am the cause for all this, if only i had watched my actions. How many times have people asked me why am i so nice to a girl? How many times have people asked me if i am NOT afraid i may give others the wrong idea? But this is me, and i won't change who i am. I am not gonna give up being nice to people just because somebody may misunderstand. My care for you is also as true as a friend, i may go out of the way but i don't have other ideas. Just so sorry my care has become a burden too much for you. I understand, it is scary when someone suddenly has so much care for you. We may never be friends but at least we are not enemies. I am thankful i once know you.


P.S.: Every time i log onto Facebook, I look out for your photo on Friends On Chat...

A Long Deserved Break

No mood to blog for a very long time. Since i left Starhub, since Akemi left for Australia, since you've been gone. Back from Taiwan, feeling emotional. Partly regretting not doing more to make this a better trip, another part of me feeling sad that this is how it ends.


Somethings are never meant to be, that's why no matter how hard you try, it is still the same. Just like trying to grow taller when you are already 22-.- Yet, if you never try hard enough, sometimes you may just be a step away from success. One can just say "things are born these way" and take the easy way out. But how many has the courage to make a difference and smile at the end, saying "I have DONE my best"? Yes, it is DONE not TRIED.


P.S.: 我跟你就像大海与天空,乍看之下好像连在一起. 事实上是两条永不相交的平行线.

Poetry of a wimpy kid

I sincerely wish

I could read your mind

Please give me a second

I'm trying to find

Just the right words

that will let you see

how so very special

you are to me

I don't know why

you must talk in code

Every confusing line

puts me in panic mode

If a yes means no

and a no means yes

then maybe means what?

It's a damn linguistics test!


Why can't you simply say
what you really want instead?
The only thing I know:
"Nothing's wrong" means I am dead


So please accept my apology
for a man will be a man
And even though I love you so
some things I'll never understand


So please accept my apology
for a man will be a man
And even though I love you so
some things I'll never understand


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I'm not that great to come up with this, just my fortune to chance upon the voices of many hearts.


P.S.: Poetry of a wimpy kid - Leonard Teo

Back to where i belong

Went back to AHS to meet up with Soh, Boss & SK for some 55th anniversary run which we missed. Took 168 to RSS and walked caused my ez-link no money-.-" Walking pass RSS, lots of scenes re-enact in my mind. The times when i always played blind mice at the playground, when i always buy the 10 cents ice pop at the mama shop, when i took bus 17 with a very cute girl. Then, at market 85 i remembered NCC feasting like monsters after CCA day, council having desserts during camps and of course when i was robbed for the first time. At the canteen, saw the veg rice auntie, she was probably too afraid of me since i used to buy $1(rice + 3 veg) worth of food from her. There was a group of boys sliding down from the slope where i used to collect saga seeds. Kinda nice childhood, my dad always tells me about how he slides down those kampong slopes with a cardboard when he was young. I wanna try it 1 day. In the air-con hall, thought of my sec 1 orientation when i looked at my OGLs in awe, never expecting myself to become 1 eventually. In that 4 years, i had more fantastic memories than at any point of my life because i had friends. Friends, a group of people who i have grown so dependent on. Maybe cause my current friends have been so great that i have failed to embrace new ones, or the other way round. I feel lost typing this post like i don't know what i wanna say. Sadness is beautiful, loneliness is tragical. More memories of childhood, trying to go back in time now that you have grown up. Yet, longing to grow up when you were just a kid. If only source code exist in this world.


P.S.: Things will never be the same again