Song of your heart

I need to recount my "adventure" on 21/04/2011. Absolutely the most unlucky day of my life this year. Woke up by the stinging sound of my ringtone instead of my alarm & i knew i was recalled. Then, nik decides to be nice & not ask me cover him not knowing i already left house without my cousins' presents & stuff for rest of the day. Anyway, thanks to him hanging in there. Went Bedok for breakfast & swim but so coincidentally, the pool wasn't open till evening time!!! So i decided to go Tampines to swim and lucky me forgot my goggles. Rush back home to get presents & meet my cousin, Wan Yin, to pass her presents for her & Wan Xuan. Had a decent lunch at Holland V, my first time trying Mexican food. Portion and flavor much to my liking. Okay maybe the only good thing about that day was the food. Updated Wan Yin about my life and also learn about her interesting pilot-boyfriend. What a dream, to be a pilot. Next, went to meet SK at NUS where i alighted at the wrong stop only to walk up a slope. I know i fit la, but the day just seems to get shittier. Follow SK home and htht along the way, been long since we hang out especially with Fat-Soh slumbering into some kinda depression. Me becoming a slave for money/Starhub, SK & Mao managing their studies and relationships, our gang haven't been meeting for El Clasicos and late night matches. Emo. Carrying on, we went to Tampines SAFRA to play pool but so many people we thought no hope when the uncle asked us to write our name to book after like 15-20min. Had he asked us earlier we would be playing but also our fault not to asked. Walked around the whole SAFRA also cannot find any ATMs, WTH??? Luckily, saw this girl with a not-bad back view, *Beethoven* but she never turned around. Apparently she just finished a game of squash, i think sporty girls exude great charisma. Woosh! Anyway, we went back to see the queue and indeed we were next but it's gonna take at least another hour cause all the tables were full and the next group to leave were the ones before us. Demoralized to the max, we walked to Tampines Interchange and chilled at Starbucks. Left @ 1030pm to take bus only to miss my bus, waited like quite long so i decided to cab. The moment i cross the road to flag cab, all the cabs in the world disappear; my bus came. Apparently i wasn't unlucky enough, people started to hijack cabs in front of me till the point i gave up on cab. My bus finally came, that was 1115pm!!! Luckily SK waited with me along the way and consoled me. Thanks SK, for making the wasted trip with me=p Ran home even though i was in my Fred Perry shoes(sorry Michelle=p) Cab down to ECP Cage for some midnight futsal. This is the highlight of my suayness man. My $125++ predator pulse splits into 2 at the arch of my foot as i ran. Unknowingly my stuts were all broken! Then Soon Tat returned me my other pair of boots and same thing, it broke after a few runs. This Tiempo accompanied me since secondary school and although it is cheaper, i prefer it to the predator. Just like that, 200++ flew away, heartaches... Okay that sums up my ultimate unlucky day, but luckily there was a message to cheer me up that night=D

Feeling nostalgic, started listening to the 90s. Started with this song from bsb, Shape of My Heart, like the chorus. Then, N Sync, my favorite band! Share a trivial - N Sync was formed by the last letter of the first name of the members. Cool eh? This I Promise You has got to be my favorite song, remember that Jem! LOL

Anyway was sms-ing HPY when i realized, i have no female friends with those sizzling hot looks or figures. No offence but really, i think about it and, yea i continue thinking. Pretty friends a lot, my "mother" Janet is a beauty. Monday, saw her in manager room and she gave me her brightest smile man, honestly i got "dian" by her! 31 still pretty as ever, if only she doesn't slouch. Been long since she last smiled like that, hope the new staffs don't give anymore problem, Sandra don't throw more spanner and she lives happily ever after with Jeff. Thought Monday was a good day cause not much crowd, was back to Standing counter with Ronn & Fang Ying. I can only say i was disappointed, was i too slack yet expecting too much?


Just saw a post regarding a lonely baleen whale singing at a frequency higher than what it's specie can hear, thus, it has no family, friends, lover, gang or group. The poor whale has been tracked since 1992 and till now it is still alone. If any human under the same predicament, he/she probably died of depression in 1993. Read a blog that says animals in the wild do not suffer depression like humans. They don't turn suicidal cause they don't have friends and stuff. That whale must be damn optimistic or lucky, wish that it will finally find a friend. Loneliness is my most dreaded foe.

Just had a HTHT with Pei Yu at kopitiam, miss this kinda spontaneous late night meet ups that i thought was only possible in Bedok. Chat about the usual stuff and 1 thing she said struck me hard, that shall be my P.S. note for this post. I HATE SMS, WHOEVER INVENTED IT, I'M NOT GONNA THANK YOU. Random.

P.S.: 我们要更爱自己(我们要懂得自爱)

Emo

Went for dinner with my uncle-cum-godfather, cousin & grandma and my family. Didn't go to the Nakhon Kitchen as intended but to a Hong Street Zichar Restaurant at Eastwood Road. In the land of my hometown, everything is nice=)) As we were eating, i realized i'm truly my father's son. As in, cause i don't like to kiap food for people-think it is too formal & fake-and there my father was kiap-ing food for the entire table while i was chanting in my heart "don't kiap for me"! Don't know telepathy or what, he finally turned to me and said with the damn cool voice, "eh boy, 你自己拿hor?" For a moment, he was like the Bruce Willis of "Die Hard 4" and Liam Neeson of "Taken", i look at him with admiration. My dad and i really think alike man, like father like son. No wonder i so handsome!!!


I was watching 一代女王 and they were talking about joining this positive 无可救药积极正面思考团 cult. Talking about how those people with suicidal thoughts or depression became positive about life. Something they said struck me strongly-a pair of good friends lost their friendship cause of jealousy. Makes me think of a lot of people like Ming Wei, Jem and even Eloise. Ming Wei, was like my identical twin, likes soccer, joined NCC & council, study same subjects, joined Furnix blah blah blah. I got to admit i was jealous of him cause i was living in his shadow. Oh well, glad it's over. As for Jem, i'm just glad we are still friends=)) Till the day that i can entrust my faith in someone, maybe i'm not ready to enter a relationship.


Browsing through facebook, don't know how just wander to Michelle's page. Photos of her classmates reminded me of the times she shared with me about them. Really missed the days when i could readily ask her out for a game of pool or just to go to ECP and stroll. Still keeping the tissue she folded for me although that $2 heart was lost in a cab when i went bugis 3 years back. Then again, seeing how happy she is now & how much she has changed, smile & move on=D Moving on by Toya is a song that really helped me, still remembered i first heard it in NYDC with Soh, SK & Mao cause of Mao's imba voucher.


Tomorrow is gonna be a super shag day and i'm still not sleeping. Got to hit the bed soon. Good night everybody, oh ya, to those who are reading this, YOU DON'T HAVE TO PUBLICIZE MY BLOG!*you know who you are*


P.S.: If my life were a song, what song would it be.


Glad to receive your messages=)

Employee's benefit

Just received the employee's benefit letter from BGC. It informed me of what Medical Leave & Annual Leave i'm entitled to after THREE MONTHS and when did i receive it? Exactly 51 weeks after i joined, that's 1 week short of being a year! Only takeaway from the letter? The orchid stamp that i cut out from the letter cover -_-


P.S.: 随遇而安

Life's like that

Happy is the mood for 17-04-2011. I went to Bedok Point for the first time, really nothing much to do there. A few restaurants, more than Compass Point though. BUT, there is this imba thing called arcade. From Bishi Bashi Champ to Air Hockey to Daytona to Foosball, this is childhood man. The best of all, of course is the UFO catcher that you get to catch all the fluffy toys. My dad didn't allow me to keep them for fear of me getting asthma but actually i think it is damn sweet to be catching these toys for my love ones. My ideal date is just to catch a movie, have a simple meal, non-stop talking and go have a great haul at the UFO catcher.


Today, finally set up my Wifi and skyped with Jem from my place for the first time. Happily pressed video call not realizing i wasn't wear a shirt. Lucky i end call fast enough, if not jiu let you zhuan dao hor Jem??? LOL confirm say got nothing to see right? Anyway today accomplished quite a lot - collected the router through EXPRESS MEANS, bought presents for my mother & cousins, utilized my Adidas voucher, bought my groceries*something for you as well*, called Mr Chua to learn more about teaching & last but not least sold my phone! That's a lot of stuff for a day huh. Satisfied with my new acquisition, i think i spent about $300 in all the present, that's excluding the voucher man.I don't mind eating Kopitiam till the day i leave Starhub. Hope my mother & cousins will like the presents.


The other day my unit OC came to replace SIM & told me i shrunk, even my platoon mate who i chance upon later said the same thing. From now on, it's protein every meal plus push ups every night man. 60kg is the aim man, don't worry Jem, my BMI will still be lower=)) Anyway 1 reason i wanna be a PE teacher is also cause of this, i don't wanna get unfit with some office job in the future. Imagine me balding with a beer belly?! WTH la. I must get back my "buff" body!


What is the difference between infatuation & love? You are stuck in the ambiguous zone where you can't make up your mind. You wait and wait for an SMS but give up & sent a chaser, once or twice it may stir a smile but looks kinda loser after a while. You think that every little thing that the person does is a sign of her feelings for you. You convince yourself that everything in the way is just an obstacle as a test of faith. You start linking your scenario to Taiwanese Idol Drama & think that your "hardwork & sincerity" will win her over. You have stupid thoughts like "不在乎天长地久 只在乎曾经拥有". Sometimes things work out, sometimes, they don't. People says you are stubborn but isn't love about the feelings you have? If you have such strong feelings then why not be a little stubborn and 来一场轰轰烈烈的爱情? You know if the person suits you within minutes of knowing her but it depends on fate whether you will get together. As in maybe because of timing, you get to know the person later and that's it, she is wonderfully attached. So when people say leave it to fate, it doesn't mean not doing anything. We gotta learn from Cheryl Cole and fight fight fight fight fight for this love! Jem, you got me thinking about all this, so you are responsible for making me can't sleep!


P.S.: To the world, you may be someone but to someone, you may be the world

Project Efficiency

Said i wanna tidy my room, haven't done so. Said i wanna call CCP, haven't done so. Said i wanna train for Sundown, haven't done so. Omg i am the living body of procrastination. Okay Jem, i know you must be cursing me that i haven't called CCP. I lost his number=p


Went for 2XU run with Mao, SK & Bai. Expectedly cui, took like 7min/km lehz. Never mind, i have decided to go running on all my off days. Hopefully will make it for Sundown=)) Breakfast was good, mee kia & kway chap at old airport road with mao driving us around. Though we got lost a few times, it was fun with your friend driving around and not a taxi. Sadly, mao's dad Lexus was damaged by some ill-breed sucker(not the same day) Hope the repair is not too costly.


Starhub seems to make a lot of people sad. Today, Yvonne is not emo, she was devastated! If she was just swearing and bitching i would understand but she was just so quiet. So so sad. Peiyu also seems emo the other day when we went home. Needless to say, i'm unhappy at Starhub too. I can't find people to disturb at BE to de-stress myself!!! Last time got the ever-so-cool Esther, happy-go-lucky Shirla, comical Nick Neo and of course, my cute-aka-noob HPY. Oh, but i'm leaving so it won't matter!!! Today, Vicki came to ask me if i still applying my leave for May cause i actually cancelled it. I just happily said, "OH WO DOU ZOU LE=))" Mixed feelings, but i know i have to go. Yvonne & CC told me to stay, my "mother" Janet definitely was the first to say but obviously even she knows i have to go. It's been an enriching 1 year, friends & experience wise. Thank you Janet, BBSIM & Nick Neo=))


Today (11/04/2011) is Jasmine's birthday, Happy Birthday!!! I know i very special hor, called you at 2359 to wish you. Actually, it's just that i could wish you at 0000=p But still i made an effort to time to perfection and wished you right on the dot! So, Happy Birthday to you again.


Will you love someone the way they like or love them with your own way? No wrong or right but if you choose the former, won't you lose yourself? As in 迷失自我, losing your originality which may be what captivates the other party. Having your style is attractive to me, not to the point of being stubborn or snobbish though. Sometimes i think i'm behaving like how others would want me to instead of how i would. Ya, i know i should be ashamed of that, just hard to ignore others' view.


Suddenly thought of 刻苦铭心的爱 and thought of 爱情零度C. I shall watch it someday.


P.S.: The only constant in this world, is changes.