New Blog

Hi diary,

this is a brand new beginning to my blogging life cause i have forgotten the PW for my old blog. Might as well, probably a sign from the management upstairs - let go of the past & start a new adventure! Starting a new blog is troublesome but i have decided that there's too many green things around me and so i shall pick another color for the blogskin to start with. Red is a bit of angst, so i chose orange instead=)

Although it has been long since my birthday but i wanna thank all those who made a difference to my 21st Birthday, to my mum, grandpa, grandma, ah yi, xiao yi, wan yin, wan ru, wei ling, bing bing jie jie for helping me preparing the dinner & all the presents. Even though dad wasn't there but it was for work so i understand, don't worry dad, u are forgiven. Thank you to boon, jem, jianee, king, mao, say hwee, shimin, siyao, SK, soh, xav, zhi rong & zhou for being there. of course, there is my starhub colleagues, HPY, esther, xiong jie, shirla, chan hui, ping bros, zhijun, cheng xing, vicki, kwang, nic who gave me a pleasant surprise. Special thanks to julianna with the specially decorated poster(i still duno where to hang it) Thanks to my new friend, jasmine lin qian ru who surprise me with a gift too! lots of thanksgiving, not forgetting x'mas which had lotza gift exchanges. Had a secret exchange with 5 friends, an unforgettable night @ Crowne Plaza Hotel with 2d and another bbq-cum-time capsule making with council. If only i had time for a little gathering with my NCC gang.

To be honest, i haven't been meeting up with my secondary school friends since joining Starhub & especially so after i got closer with my Starhub friends. I'm sorry guys, promise i will spend more time with you all. Just that currently my life is in a mess so i gotta sort things out but doing this alone is kinda tough. Need some time to tidy my room, clear whatever to-do-list i have yet to complete and earn more money for trips & school. Not gonna look back on 2010 cause any more thinking & i will get even more melancholy. Sooner or later i will just slumber into depression. Seriously, Singapore society is too screwed up. Happiness level is like a bottomless pit. Such fast pace & high stress level, no wonder the Italians are enjoying a better life taking things slowly(as shown in Eat, Pray, Love) With so little sleep & so much stress, how to be happy sia? That's why i am here blabbering about my life & releasing some tension.

The truth is i am very vexed over friendship issues. Always happen that i can't handle some colleagues/army friends & we end up being hostile strangers. In secondary sch, it was jonathan quek who stepped on my tail. In army, it was some arty guy who irritated me. Now in Starhub, some 17 YO i also can't handle. I really admired people like Tong Wei & Ming Wei who can really handle this type of "AP Kia", maybe that's what they call charisma. Today, i jeopardized my friendship with my HPY's sis. Friendship spiraling out of control just when i thought we were getting on better terms. Maybe cause she is my HPY's sis so her comments were very influential. Kinda sad when people says u ain't that approachable & have the look of a killer. What's bewildering is that u smile everytime u see people but when u get to work & be serious u get mistaken for having black face, am i really showing attitude?2005, when i was parade commander for AHS NDP, some SJAB junior said i look very fierce when i was coordinating the parade rehearsal. 6 years later, another SJAB junior says i always give black face. OUCH!!! Just hurt so much when i am trying so hard to be friendly. I don't seem to be handling people-to-people relationship well. I really hope when i go to work tomorrow HPY's sis will not ignore me. 

Good nitez beautiful world, there is definitely a reason i am in this world. I will make a better difference to the world=)


P.S.: I love you Mum & Dad(i'm sure you know)